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Everyone you're going to turn into,
Is going to leave the world behind.
You're going to put that load right down on me,
But I guess that I...never mind.
I wanna believe that anybody,
Can bend instead of break.
But to judge by the things that you are now,
It would seem like a big mistake.

Are you still mad? Well who could blame you?
Jenny, it's a long way up into the air,
And sometimes you're not there.

Now you say you're going to take it on,
Then cast it off like a rolling stone.
Everything is almost in its place,
'Til you realize your mind is blown.
I wanna believe the everybody,
Sees you as really are.
I wish that you'd just take the very first step,
But I doubt that you'll get that far.

Are you still wrecked? I can't explain you.
Jenny, you're a long way gone into the air,
But sometimes you're not there.

In the end there's little harm that's done,
But you give yourself a scare,
Pressing buttons in the panic room,
'Til you realize there's no one there.
I wanna believe that it's all right,
Just living for the day.
But I wonder why you reel it in,
Just to throw it all away.

Are you so sad? Does it still pain you?
Jenny, it's a long way down into despair.
Sometime you're not there.


from The Fellows are Opening for Jon and Ken, released July 22, 2014




The Calculus Affair Seattle, Washington

The Calculus Affair is the solo project of Seattle musician Paul Mariz. Paul plays music out in the world as a member of The Rejections, a band made up of novelists and their trailing spouses (of which he is the latter).

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