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Sitting in a cold room, just dead air and I,
Edging toward the chasm to jump off and fly.
And the elephant in the room declined to even give his name.

Filter through the circuits, each one in turn,
Tearing out the records; none saved, all burned.
I'm so arrogant, I'm the man who imaged he could change the world.

And in my darker moments I imagine I am only here
To pick up all the extra slack.
I take it back,
I take it all back.

Wound up here unheaded, wasn't headed this way.
It wasn't were I wanted, so unwanted I stayed.
It's so elegant in it's own right. It'll be all right. It's the same.

And on the twisted road I travel I think I might be the one
Who's riding down the wrong track.
I take it back,
I take it all back.

The thing of it is, I have doubt;
I came and I saw; I fell out.
Now I don't want to be here,
I don't want to know,
Why can't they just let me go?

Does it drag you under and are you afraid?
Don't it make you wonder, these men I have made?
All this eloquence, you would think, would make the tragedy
Easier to bear.

And it my darker moments I can feel the walls around me closing in.
I start to crack.
I take it back,
I take it all back.


from the lossless e​.​p., released November 26, 2013




The Calculus Affair Seattle, Washington

The Calculus Affair is the solo project of Seattle musician Paul Mariz. Paul plays music out in the world as a member of The Rejections, a band made up of novelists and their trailing spouses (of which he is the latter).

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