Three E​.​P​.​'s

by The Calculus Affair

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This album collects the releases, "The Lossless EP" (Nov. 2013), "The Fellows are Opening for Jon and Ken" (Jul. 2014), and "Lost on This Island" (Nov. 2015).

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released August 9, 2016

All songs written by Paul Mariz except:
Falling for the World, Thief of the Daylight, and This Cosmic Place by Autoharp with lyrics by Paul.

All noises made by Paul Mariz except:

Gino Scarpino: backing vocals on "Men of Luggage"
Jason Hyatt: backing vocals on "Men of Luggage"
Jennie Shortridge: backing vocals on Falling for the World, Thief of the Daylight, and This Cosmic Place.
Autoharp: Drums, bass, keys, and synths on Falling for the World, Thief of the Daylight, and This Cosmic Place.

Autoharp is an open-source algorithmic music generating program. Learn more at www.inquisitivists.com.

The Lossless EP was originally mastered by Kevin Bressler at Whiney Cat Audio, Seattle WA
The Fellows are Opening for Jon and Ken was originally mastered by Adam Straney at BreakPoint Mastering

Produced by Paul Mariz. Additional production on Men of Luggage and Thief of the Daylight by Gino Scarpino.

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The Calculus Affair Seattle, Washington

The Calculus Affair is the solo project of Seattle musician Paul Mariz. Paul plays music out in the world as a member of The Rejections, a band made up of novelists and their trailing spouses (of which he is the latter).

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Track Name: The Bridge
I'm going over the bridge it's the long way home
But the drive isn't half what it seems
And the red brake lights look like rivers of electric blood flows in parallel streams

But love gets you only so far
Regret gets you only so far

I'm going over the bridge and the water is rough
And the spray bursts up on the windshield
And glancing across, the lea side rests, the quietness there is concealed

She's living miles and miles and more from me now
And she'll only move further away.
It gets so hard to explain when you're living alone and it was always already that way.

I'm going over the bridge and I'm thinking of you
And how strange everything seems to be
I could go over the edge, I could dive right in, and the water I'd join easily.

But love gets you only so far
Regret gets you only so far
Track Name: Just This Once
Met a girl who works down the hall,
Never seen her before, I don't know her at all.
That makes this one thing hard to explain,
Why the absence of her just makes me insane.

Oh, I...just this once and then I'd never have to be alone again.

London calls and I'm off with the shot,
Only thinking of her and I like it a lot.
She calls in the night so she can explain,
Why the absence of me just makes her insane.

Oh I...just this once and then I'd never have to be alone again,
Never sigh again, never cry again
Swear I'd never ask for anything again
As long as I have you in my life and, oh, I...

Met a girl with the time to spend,
Think I'll be with her 'til the living end.
I know she'll never cause me pain,
Because the absence of her would just make me insane.
Track Name: Men of Luggage
Men of luggage, check your coats,
Sit down and stay awhile,
Loosen your ties.
Enough rope to hang yourselves
Is waiting on the nightstand
When you're picking up the phone.
I thought at least
You would have figured out by now

That same mistake
That you'll make over and over again

In your lives.
You're burying the past,
Then just digging up the graves.
Don't feel bad,
I know you'd fight it if you could.
Making up the rivals
Who are knocking down your door
Don't hang around,
They might be coming back for blood.

That same mistake
That you'll make over and over again,
That same heartbreak
That you'll make over and over again.

So travel light.

And you're wearing the coat
That isn't keeping out the cold
And you carry that torch for yourself.
And I warn you the flame
Might just burn you at the touch
But you don't want to hear about it all that much.
So travel light.

Men of luggage turn around,
Try to retrace your steps
I do not think they will be coming back for you.
Men of luggage it's okay,
It's hard to live this life.
In your shoes I don't know what I would do.

That same mistake
That you'll make over and over again.
That same heartbreak
That you'll make over and over again.

So travel light.
Track Name: I Take it Back
Sitting in a cold room, just dead air and I,
Edging toward the chasm to jump off and fly.
And the elephant in the room declined to even give his name.

Filter through the circuits, each one in turn,
Tearing out the records; none saved, all burned.
I'm so arrogant, I'm the man who imaged he could change the world.

And in my darker moments I imagine I am only here
To pick up all the extra slack.
I take it back,
I take it all back.

Wound up here unheaded, wasn't headed this way.
It wasn't were I wanted, so unwanted I stayed.
It's so elegant in it's own right. It'll be all right. It's the same.

And on the twisted road I travel I think I might be the one
Who's riding down the wrong track.
I take it back,
I take it all back.

The thing of it is, I have doubt;
I came and I saw; I fell out.
Now I don't want to be here,
I don't want to know,
Why can't they just let me go?

Does it drag you under and are you afraid?
Don't it make you wonder, these men I have made?
All this eloquence, you would think, would make the tragedy
Easier to bear.

And it my darker moments I can feel the walls around me closing in.
I start to crack.
I take it back,
I take it all back.
Track Name: Men of Luggage (Acoustic)
Men of luggage, check your coats,
Sit down and stay awhile,
Loosen your ties.
Enough rope to hang yourselves
Is waiting on the nightstand
When you're picking up the phone.
I thought at least
You would have figured out by now

That same mistake
That you'll make over and over again

In your lives.
You're burying the past,
Then just digging up the graves.
Don't feel bad,
I know you'd fight it if you could.
Making up the rivals
Who are knocking down your door
Don't hang around,
They might be coming back for blood.

That same mistake
That you'll make over and over again,
That same heartbreak
That you'll make over and over again.

So travel light.

And you're wearing the coat
That isn't keeping out the cold
And you carry that torch for yourself.
And I warn you the flame
Might just burn you at the touch
But you don't want to hear about it all that much.
So travel light.

Men of luggage turn around,
Try to retrace your steps
I do not think they will be coming back for you.
Men of luggage it's okay,
It's hard to live this life.
In your shoes I don't know what I would do.

That same mistake
That you'll make over and over again.
That same heartbreak
That you'll make over and over again.

So travel light.
Track Name: The Man Who Used to Hunt Cougars For Bounty
Coming to the V.U. on a cold fall night,
Blending with the crowd in my trenchcoat and a tie.
Everyone will dance and we will rock and roll,
All night long.

The Fellows are Opening for Jon and Ken,
Helping us to reach a state of teenage Zen.
As cool as anything that I knew,
I knew I was wrong.

And you wanting everyone you know to always be okay....

Follow you at night, you go across Red Square,
It's one in the morning and there's no one else there.
Kneeling in the fountain, hear your whispers in the dark.

The viewing of the sky in telephoto lens,
Gave me the illusion we could just be friends.
Now we're shaking hands, agree to always drift apart.

And I loved you so even though,
You would already leave me.
You took a stand next to,
"The Man Who Used to Hunt Cougars for Bounty."
Track Name: Desperation Suits You
I am afraid you don't hold my best interests.
You rope your arms around my neck and squeeze.
Carry on this way, leave me as wreck while you're at ease.

Tripping at times we go and do things your way,
It's my own failing for letting you decide.
It breaks my heart, but I'm going to let it slide.

Try on other clothes too,
But each time desperation suits you.

When I wake up so early in the morning,
I just want us to get along.
It breaks my heart admitting I was wrong.

Try out other styles too,
Always desperation suits you.

I am afraid you can't hold it together.
All I can do is watch it while it falls apart.
It breaks us up, you know it breaks my heart.
You know it breaks my heart.
Track Name: Interlude
(Instrumental)
Track Name: Hollow Hellos
It's late at night with my eyes on the road,
And the bridges are down but still everything's slow.
And the traffic reports are ignoring the cracks,
That have formed in the walls that were holding you back

From hollow hellos

And then out of the dark comes a series of lights,
That the pattern is there only proves you were right.
I stare at the window only hoping to see,
You coming back to me,

With hollow hellos

It's late at night and my thinking is slow.
But I'm waiting up and I think that you know.
Track Name: Just You and Your Madness
Picking at your sutures like you do,
That particular kind of torture that always soothes.
And I can tell you want to mean it now,
You just don't know how.

Putting on your makeup for the show,
You play the lightening rod,
Who am I playing?
I don't know, I just don't know and I don't care,
After all it's just you and your madness sitting there.

Rifle through your papers it must be here,
You know you wrote it down when it was clear.
And I can tell you really knew it then,
It was better when,
It was just you and your madness as your only friend.

From far away you probably think you'll see it through,
But it's just you and your madness,
Running away with you.

You've perfectly deflected the assault.
You find this stuff amusing?
You should laugh, it's your fault.
But I don't think you know that it's not fair,
Think you're not aware,
That it's just you and your madness sitting there.
Track Name: Jenny
Everyone you're going to turn into,
Is going to leave the world behind.
You're going to put that load right down on me,
But I guess that I...never mind.
I wanna believe that anybody,
Can bend instead of break.
But to judge by the things that you are now,
It would seem like a big mistake.

Are you still mad? Well who could blame you?
Jenny, it's a long way up into the air,
And sometimes you're not there.

Now you say you're going to take it on,
Then cast it off like a rolling stone.
Everything is almost in its place,
'Til you realize your mind is blown.
I wanna believe the everybody,
Sees you as really are.
I wish that you'd just take the very first step,
But I doubt that you'll get that far.

Are you still wrecked? I can't explain you.
Jenny, you're a long way gone into the air,
But sometimes you're not there.

In the end there's little harm that's done,
But you give yourself a scare,
Pressing buttons in the panic room,
'Til you realize there's no one there.
I wanna believe that it's all right,
Just living for the day.
But I wonder why you reel it in,
Just to throw it all away.

Are you so sad? Does it still pain you?
Jenny, it's a long way down into despair.
Sometime you're not there.
Track Name: Falling for the World
It’s my turn but I don’t dare
You turn the lights off when I’m still sitting there.
It’s blinding, I close my eyes,
I accept that this may come as some surprise.

Collusion is now at play,
Use it or get out of the way.
I feel it hit at the top,
I suppose at any moment it might stop.

This is how I’m falling for the world…

So close now, I know it’s near
Try to prepare but it is already here,
Becoming--I knew it would.
The end result is not quite fully understood.

The inner workings are now exposed,
You have the knowledge, don’t let your mind be closed.
It builds and it breaks apart
And at the end it may just be a work of art.

This is how I’m falling for the world…
Track Name: Thief of the Daylight
All has come to nought, all the trouble that was wrought,
Overwhelming analog devices.

Season of trouble, so long
Thief of the Daylight, be gone.

Walls are caving in, wills are wearing thin,
Overwhelming natural defenses.

Season of slumber, so long
Thief of the Daylight, be gone.

Sunshine, and all is forgiven.

Greet the rain that pours, open up the outer doors
Gaze upon that mighty face and tremble.

Season of trouble, so long
Thief of the Daylight, be gone.

Sunshine, and all is forgiven

Season of trouble, so long
Thief of the Daylight, be gone.
Season of trouble, so long
Thief of the Daylight, be gone.
Track Name: This Cosmic Place
There is the Sun--up there, high in the sky burning
There is the Earth--weightless, bound to the sun, turning

Here is the Sun spinning in spiral-armed circles
Here is the Earth’s orbit, bound in a well of stars
Here is the Moon waning, and then again waxes
Here are the Earth’s seasons, caused by a tilt of axis

We float along the sea of space,
Order from chaos in This Cosmic Place
We float along the ocean of stars
Lost on this island; hey, look where we are
Look where we are

Here is the Earth, our home--water and air and land
Now here is humankind stretching to touch God’s hand

We float along an ocean of stars
Lost on this Island, look where we are.
We float along the cosmic sea
How far we’ve come, humans.

All of the dust in all of the men
All came from stars and will go back again.
We came from stars, it’s what we were then
We came from stars, and we’ll go back again

We float along the sea of space,
Order from chaos in This Cosmic Place
We float along the ocean of stars
Lost on this island
Look where we are